Drum Roll....

I can't quite fully believe it but....I'm pregnant!  I tested yesterday as suggested by Fertility Friend.  First thing in the morning, and early, even though we weren't going into work.  But I couldn't stand the suspense anymore, even though I had an idea.  I don't know why, but I just had a feeling the test was going to be positive.  And sure enough, I peed on the test, and like ten seconds later, it was positive.  That was reassuring, because when I had my chemical pregnancy, the test took almost the full three minutes to come back positive.  So I'm hoping that means the HcG levels are higher than last time.  Just to help confirm, I did another on later in the afternoon, after lots of liquid, and it was also positive!  I'm excited and I think it could be real this time.  But I'm still so nervous I'm just going to miscarry again.

To make matters worse, I'm not seeing the OB nurse for a blood beta until I'm 6 weeks, so I have to wait another two weeks for that.  And then I don't see my doctor until I'm eight weeks, and she's not even available in the evenings until I'm nine weeks.  So it sucks, cause here I am waiting again.  And we really don't want to start telling people until I've had that first ultrasound, which just prolongs everything even more.  But I'm trying not to think about all that...just be positive and excited.  And surprisingly, not as nervous as I thought.