Intro

Here it goes.

I'm totally new to this blogging thing, but now that me and hubby are on the TTC path, I'm discovering the therapeutic aspect of venting all your stresses and sharing all your joys with others out there in your situation.

I'm 29 and DH is 34. We've been TTC for 5 months now, starting when I went off Nuvaring in February. I realize, generally speaking, I have nothing to complain about. So many other couples out there have been TTC for years. But it doesn't matter if it's one cycle or dozens that you have to endure when you're on that road. It's still hard, and I find it especially frustrating because I was so unsure of babies for so long. Last year in June, we left our wonderful-but-small Manhattan apartment for the suburbs, with the thought that we would start a family. But once we got out of the city, I suddenly felt terrified of being a mother. I'm sure that the combination of our huge life change and normal fears of parenthood was what overwhelmed me. So we backed off from the whole idea for awhile. Finally, in February this year, we decided to take the plunge, and just "see how it goes." Now, five months later, I'm stamping my foot, wondering why we're not one of those freak couples that just got pregnant like that. It's so ironic considering I was so scared for so long about actually getting pregnant and now I'm just dying for it to happen!

It probably doesn't help either that this seems to be the year for pregnancies. It seems that nearly every one of our friends got pregnant this year, and I can't help but be jealous. And if any of your other TTCers out there are reading this, I know you can relate to my frustration with constantly being asked, "So, when are you guys gonna have kids?"

I really do believe it will happen for us. Hopefully sooner rather than later...